I was already a Christian for more than a decade before I got married and have a child. In that over ten years I studied the word of God; some I understand some I didn’t. And I also tried to follow His commandments.
When I became a father, I know how great the blessing God has given me. Aside from giving me what I had asked for, He also entrusted me a life, a soul.
While enjoying the blessing of having a child, I was never aware of another blessing that will come along. And this is to be able to relate to God as a father.
When I became a father, I suddenly had an understanding of God’s thought and feelings. It may not be a full understanding but being a father, I suddenly got a great view of God. It’s like watching in theater, I was placed on a seat that I could see the play more clearly.
Being a father, I had the opportunity to understand God’s love to His children. I was thinking that there’s no one else could love my son more than I love him. And If I’m going to base my love to him as a measurement and disregard Christianity for a while, there will be no greater love than I have with my son. I love him so much that I’m always ready to give my life for him.
But still, there’s no greater love than God’s love. He gave His only Son and let Him tortured and die because of our sin just to save us. I will never let it happen to my son for anybody else. So I thought if I love my son this much, how much more God’s love toward us? Letting your child to suffer and die for the sake of others? I now understand how painful it is for God to see His Son mocked by people and suffer a painful death. I’m sure I can’t do this. But God did it for me and for you.
So being a father allowed me to relate to God and gave me a grasp on His feelings and His will.
Before, it’s hard for me to understand why is He letting things happen to me in spite of being a Christian. Why can’t He let me do what I want? Why can’t He give me what I want? Why does He have lots of restrictions and commandments? Why can’t He let me enjoy life? It’s suffocating.
But when I had a child, I realized that I’m doing the same thing as God as a father. I want him to do this and not do that. I want him to have this and not that, even though my toddler doesn’t agree. All of this because I love him. I want the best for him. There are times that we are fighting because he doesn’t want what I want but I have to let him cry and feel the disappointment because what I’m doing and what I want is all for his good. And I know he hates me in those times. But I understand because I know he’s not matured enough to understand what I’m doing.
And that’s exactly how my relationship with God looks like. I now learned how to understand His will for me. Whenever I don’t get what I want, I’m just thinking that God is giving me the best for me, just like what I’m doing to my son whether he likes it or not.
I can also see God’s will and my relationship with Him in small and simple experiences with my son. Like having good times and bad times. We cuddle and play and sometimes we fight. There are times he’s obedient and there are times he’s not and stubborn. But whatever happens to us, he’s my son. Nothing will change that. My love for him will never change. There’s nothing he can do that is beyond my love and forgiveness. And there’s nothing he can do to lose my love for him. He’s always my son. He may hate me and move away. But if he ask for my forgiveness and ask to be back again, I will not give a thought about it. He’s always received and forgiven. And I’m sure that’s how God treats me because I’m His son (John 1:12).
Aside from my relationship with God, I can also relates more on the verses in the Bible about father and child. Here are some of the verses:
The parable of the Prodigal son (Luke 15:11-32)