without God

Do what thou wilt.

What would you do if you found out that God doesn’t exist? This is the question that I came up once on a spiritual forum. I think the question is asking if there would be difference on your actions between God and no-God. I answered the question honestly and without hesitation.

My answer is that I’ll do everything I want to do. I’ll do the things that had I kept myself from doing. It could be having a nightlife, getting drowned with alcohol, painting my body with tattoos, joining a trash metal band, and try everything including drugs.

Aside from doing what I want, I will also stop caring about other people. Considering other people’s thoughts and what will be good for them is really tiring. It even prevents you from doing what you want because you have to think if your actions will be best for the rest. Being considerate is tiring much more loving others especially your enemy. Loving your enemy seems doesn’t make sense. Of course I will love my family and friends because it is what I want and how I feel. I love those who love me and I will hate back those who hates me. Eye for an eye, tooth for a tooth. Seems more logical.

If God doesn’t exist, I will be on my own. I must know not only how to fill my hunger but also to defend myself. Without God, everything Darwin has said will be true including life as ‘the survival of the fittest’. I must be ‘fit’ enough to defend myself. I cannot count on anybody’s friendship and love. And what is love anyway? It is only a chemical reaction in our body.

You might say that living without trust and love is draining. I would say that expecting, hoping, and disappointment is hurtful. What matter is the present. I don’t have to think for the future and the past. I will do what pleasures me at the moment.

I cannot trust anybody because nothing is permanent in this life except for change itself and death. The only truth that I will hold is that we will all going to die and no one can oppose to that.

And since we will all going to die and after that is nothing, my goal will be is to survive and enjoy the survival. If your idea of enjoyment is helping others, preserving the nature, teaching good values, crying over a sentimental story, I will wish you good luck. I have a totally different idea of enjoyment. I will not spend my 90 years living as senseless and boring as yours.

Without God, I will please and serve only one. And that is me. This is me without God.

But I’m thankful that there is a God who changed me from who I am. (John 15:5)

I’m thankful that there is a God who is smarter and way powerful than I am and worthy of my worship. (1 Chronicles 29:11)

Because of Him, my life is not shallow and has become meaningful. (2 John 1:2)

I’m thankful that God gave me not only 90 years to live but eternity. (John 6:50)

I’m thankful that God made me learn to care and love other than myself. (Mark 12:31)

I’m thankful for God for revealing the things that really matters. (Mark 12:30)

I’m thankful for God for showing me things beyond this life and that death is not the end but only the start of eternity. (John 14:3)

I’m thankful that there is a never-changing God who is my friend and my family. (John 15:15)

I’m thankful for God for His demonstration of His unconditional, eternal love for me through His Son Jesus Christ. (John 3:16)